I posted on Facebook a couple days ago that I 'll be doing a couple of book signings at Scripture Haven in September. I'm pretty nervous, but as one lady reminded me, "Don't be nervous - you learned how to sign your name a looooooooooong time ago!" That comment made me literally laugh out loud all by myself in the computer room.
I had a long talk with the owner of Scripture Haven the other day - who happens to be a very kind and generous man. He is concerned that I will be disappointed if I don't sell a ton of books. Honestly, I probably will be disappointed if I don't sell very many books, but I continually remind myself, this is just one step in this process. This is more about my personal growth than selling books. God's asking me to stretch myself again and even if I don't sell a book, I will have been obedient to what God has asked me to do.
Those who know me, know I don't tend to fall on the social, outgoing side of the personality profile charts. I tend to be the quiet one in the corner analyzing people as they walk by - wishing I was more outgoing, fun-loving and free-spirited. Try as I may to grow and stretch myself, the "free-spirit" within me still hides fairly deep beneath this skin. All that said, the bottom line is, talking to strangers is hard for me to do. Shoot - sometimes even talking to my friends is hard for me to do! I tend to do more of the listening than the actual conversing!
Thankfully, my husband has pushed me just enough and God keeps kicking me gently in the butt just enough that I finally set the signings. We shall see what comes of it - even if what comes is strictly a personal growth experience. I'm stepping outside of my "box" once again - Lord, please hold my hand!
