I found myself doubting God last night. It's so hard when you want something so badly, but fear never getting it. Dennis and I have been fighting financial struggles for years; that's no secret to anyone that knows us well. We have been blessed with beautiful children, a healthy family, a house over our heads and vehicles that run, so please don't think I'm whining or complaining. This is about my personal struggle with trust.
God showed me a few months ago that I don't really trust Him. That could very well be why we face the financial struggles we do. So, now that Dennis and I are starting a new venture to help us climb out of the pit of debt, doubt is once again attempting to settle in.
I've been reading the Beth Moore book, Believing God and it is amazing! Also, it is apparently what I need right at this very moment. I found myself talking to aloud to boost my faith stating that I believe God can do what He says He can do . . . for me. That's the kicker - I believe it, but do I believe it for myself? I'm working on it! I am bound and determined to fix this mindset so my family can quite going in circles in the desert and cross over to the promised land. It's time for the harvest we've been preparing for!
Lord, I confess that I believe You can do what You say you can do for ME. I thank you for loving me and leading me on this path to learn to place all my trust in You. For You are Jehovah Jireh, my provider!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
A Day in the Life of a Battery Store . . .
Saturday I spent my 1st and only training day in a Batteries Plus store up here in Waukesha, WI. A couple of times I had that deer in the headlights look and had to ask for help, other times I think I knew more than one of the guys that was supposed to be training me! It was mildly reassuring that he didn't always have the answers either. One of the men doing the training couldn't lift more than 10 pounds due to a surgery he had just had on his eye and he was having trouble seeing as well - so he had me doing all of his big battery lifting and watch battery changing for him. You should have seen the look on the customer's faces when he brought me out to get their boat and car batteries for them! It was pretty humorous!
I can't say I'm an expert at this point, but I do know a heckuva lot more than I did when I started. I saw some poor customer service while I was in the store, so I made mental notes of what not to do's and some what to do's. I think if customer service is over-the-top then maybe there will be grace when it takes me a little bit to figure out their exact needs. I was proud of myself - Saturday's in store training was the thing I was most scared of doing and I made it through. I told Dennis it made me want to go out and order a pizza and a pitcher of beer to celebrate! (I ended up going out for Mexican and had a burrito and a glass of water with lemon.)
All in all it's been good - scary, stretch myself, out ot the box good. I'm ready to be home and see my kiddos and Dennis. Only 4 more days left and I'll be back to the hot, humid Texas summer. Today some friends and I drove to downtown Milwaukee to see the sights. We ended up going for a long walk along Lake Michigan. It was sunny, 75 degrees, and breezy. The park we were at was beautiful and at one point we just lay down in the grass with our eyes closed and soaked in the sun. It was pretty cool - very relaxing. There were sailboats out on the water and people walking their dogs. Family picnics and roller blading. Bike riding and sun tanning.
Fun stuff!
I can't say I'm an expert at this point, but I do know a heckuva lot more than I did when I started. I saw some poor customer service while I was in the store, so I made mental notes of what not to do's and some what to do's. I think if customer service is over-the-top then maybe there will be grace when it takes me a little bit to figure out their exact needs. I was proud of myself - Saturday's in store training was the thing I was most scared of doing and I made it through. I told Dennis it made me want to go out and order a pizza and a pitcher of beer to celebrate! (I ended up going out for Mexican and had a burrito and a glass of water with lemon.)
All in all it's been good - scary, stretch myself, out ot the box good. I'm ready to be home and see my kiddos and Dennis. Only 4 more days left and I'll be back to the hot, humid Texas summer. Today some friends and I drove to downtown Milwaukee to see the sights. We ended up going for a long walk along Lake Michigan. It was sunny, 75 degrees, and breezy. The park we were at was beautiful and at one point we just lay down in the grass with our eyes closed and soaked in the sun. It was pretty cool - very relaxing. There were sailboats out on the water and people walking their dogs. Family picnics and roller blading. Bike riding and sun tanning.
Fun stuff!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
A Fish Out Of Water
Wow! I've spent 2 days in Milwaukee starting my 2-week training in product knowledge for our new Batteries Plus Franchise . . . and boy am I a fish out of water. Somehow I ended up in a class where 1 lady has a photographic memory, 1 guy has a patent on a pump that is used in certain car batteries, 1 physicist, and 1 guy that has 2 degrees - 1 in chemical engineering and 1 in electrical engineering. I'm the teacher/preschool director gone battery guru wanna be! Sometimes I just have to ask God, "what in the world are You doing!?" And then I smile, knowing that where I am weak, He is strong and knowing that I believe with everything in me that I am supposed to be doing this for and with my man. God truly works in mysterious ways! This adventure isn't about how much I know about batteries, it's about being in unity with my husband and with our calling as kings in the church. So, onward I go!
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